Sunday, January 28, 2018

Passivity

I pray 
like I fuck

Carelessly
and without
Adoration

Conform
Comply
Submit

Isn't that what
they want

That's what he wanted
And that's what he wanted
And that's what she wanted too

Drip with passivity
and they'll do it
gently

Don't agitate
Don't turn
Don't breathe
too loud

Don't exist

Keep your opinions
to yourself

And don't question
them
Don't question
them
Don't question
them

Agree
Agree
Agree

You learn to be
numb

You crave it
like a sweetness
you've never had

Feeling
Healing

They both mean burning

Burning
like you've never known


-September 2017


Sunday, January 21, 2018

A Piece Of My Truth

Yes
Yes, I know
that it's been there
Here
This whole time
I've refused
the very idea
of it all
It's been here
Setting fire
to my veins
Poisoning
my air
and causing
all the rapid beating
of my heart
You want
admittance
for the sake
of breathing
I've been
letting myself
suffocate
while rubbing
daisies
between my
finger tips
Waiting for a peace
I never allow
to come


-January 2016

Sunday, January 7, 2018

Admittedly Broken

Running
Harder
Faster
Trying
to catch up
to the light
I keep feeling
the fierce fight
stirring
It can no longer
be contained
I've been broken
So broken
Trying to mend
myself
with tools
that held
no reasoning
Avoiding
reflections
with closed eyes
and a turned cheek


-January 2016