Wednesday, December 17, 2014

I Listen Outside

Is there nothing here
in this dawn
I listen outside
as the rain drips on
and on and on
Like the birds
that flap 
their wings
I listen outside
just to hear
their voices sing
Some are gone
taking cover
beneath a leaf
While others dance
and I breathe in
the relief
I listen outside
as the rain
drips free
I have many things
left to discover
inside of me


-December 2014




I wrote this for Poets United Midweek Motif ~ Music

Friday, December 12, 2014

Multiplying Promises

Do you ever 
close your eyes
long enough 
to dream
you know,
this awful world
isn't as awful
as it seems
Each time I think
you've learned
from your
mistakes
There you go
multiplying promises
until the last one
breaks
I watch
the pieces shatter
and splinter
in my bones
and all the words
that you say
don't mean
anything
anymore

-December 2014

Friday, December 5, 2014

Every Single Time

You keep
my heart beating
with just your 
silhouette
I haven't discovered
all there is 
to discover
about you, yet
but I'm on
my way
and I promise you
today
that I'll always
want to know more
about
your face
and how you
can calm me
with your warm
embrace
Oh, yes
it's true
I do 
love you
and when you put
your hand in mine
I'm grateful
that I've found you
every single
time

-December 2014 

Sunday, November 9, 2014

Today

I didn't plan on you
today
I thought I could just look
the other 
way
and continue
to feel 
free
for a minute there
I felt like I was just
me
I guess I didn't know
how to accept
that this is me
now
when the truth is
this has been me
I just didn't see it
somehow
It's not an everyday struggle
anymore
but some days
when I turn that knob
it's you
standing at my
door
and I want to slam it
and lock it up
tight
sometimes I can't 
find the courage
to stand alone and
fight
and I wonder
if that's
okay
because there's just times
when I don't want
to cry
today
no, I don't want
to cry
today
I say
as the tears
start rolling 
down
and my breathing
becomes
the only
sound
no, I didn't want
to cry
today
but if I let it out now
perhaps tomorrow
will be
a better 
day

-November 2014

Sunday, October 26, 2014

My Everything

I'm in it
I'm in the
swimming valleys
of everlasting growth
I feel naked
next to you
That's how
it should be
There's no tomorrow
without your eyes
or your touch
Your warmth
precedes your smile
I lie beside you
and feel your breath
grow rapid and sweet
You're my everything
You exist
just for my soul
Your taste
drips from my tongue
and I know
I'll be yours forever

-October 2014

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

Under The Sun

Do we all live here
with our twisted souls
I've eaten the last cherry
from my cherry bowl
Does that matter
to you
the way I run
through water
while you watch
from the ledge
Once you could find me
lassoed to every word
that was said
I could hold on so tightly
to that thin
little thread
But I've undone
every fiber
one by one
Now if you'd ever
like to find me
I'll be the one basking
under the sun

-October 2014

Thursday, October 2, 2014

Firefly

Hello firefly
that's been buzzing
in my ear
My darkest moments
haven't felt so dark
whenever you've been near
I've never seen anything
quite like you before
I giggle to myself
when I think of how
I almost missed
this door
But the bell
kept on ringing
and I often 
wondered why
Now I see all the light
that's been missing
thanks to this little firefly

-October 2014

Friday, September 19, 2014

Autumn

The warmth
of the sun
has become
bearable
My hair
shines golden
when touched
by the light
the old blooms
have all begun
to fade
and wither
becoming a part 
of the earth's soil
once again
I close my eyes
and feel the softness
of the light
breeze
letting me know
a new season
is coming
I watch
as she chews 
on grass
to soothe
her old belly
and listen
to the chirping
of the birds
reminding me
as I breath in
that I'm alive

-September 2014

Saturday, September 13, 2014

My Way

I'm not looking
for another
beginning
I'm not looking 
for the ending
I'm just
traveling
the only way
I know how
I've made it
this far
And nothing is going
to keep me
from following
my heart
no matter who
you are
You can take
a good long look
at me
But you can keep
your opinions
to yourself
about what it is
you see
I know I'm not
a millionaire 
but judging someone
by their monetary worth
just isn't fair
I may not live
the way you do
Just remember
that I'm me
and nothing you say
will turn me
into you

-September 2014

Saturday, August 30, 2014

I'll Always Breathe You In

I'm borrowing you
I hope that's 
okay
I know I'll have to
give you up
one of these 
days
But until
that day comes
I'm going to soak up
all the moments
you make me feel
undone
I'll cover every inch
of you
with the softness
of my skin
and before we close
our eyes
each night
I'll always 
breathe you in

-August 2014

Sunday, August 24, 2014

Unraveling

I see the way
you dream
You've opened up
my eyes
My soul is bursting
with one hundred colors
for you
I see the light dance
in your eyes
I can use it
to watch you
unravel
You keep unraveling
before me
With each thread lost
I see more of your gold
more of your glow
I can feel my soul dancing
and it's dancing 
for you

-June 2014

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Detached

We walk
with our heads
pointed down
Our faces
lit up
with nonsense
We ignore
all the realness
and soak up
all the fake
Our dreams
become
laughter
While our fears
become
our comfort
Afraid we'll
shatter
if we move

-August 2014

Thursday, July 24, 2014

Flawed Seamstress

Her patchwork
appears to be
a little shoddy
after further examination
These stitches
were not
sewn tightly
She sees separations
here and there
She was a fool
to think
it would keep her
warm enough 
at night

-July 2014

Thursday, July 17, 2014

Weighted

I feel the grittiness
as I pack the sand
in your chest

You shall feel
all the weight 
you've burdened
me with

Does God really breed
such hate
such evil
such disgrace

I never had 
the chance
to know purity
and innocence

You became my creator
of all things
shameful

I bathed
a thousand times
and still felt
unclean

You've stained me
with your colors
of guilt

I'm riddled
with holes
from my own noise
and flashbacks
of your face
your smell
your touch

If I let you sink
in the muddy waters
will I recognize
the bell that rings
or the familiar stranger
of a peaceful nights
sleep 

-July 2014

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Unwanted Guest

How do I 
let you go
I can feel
that you're trapped
You're locked
inside of me
Deep down
I know I have the key
I feel it
But this puzzle
makes me queazy
I'm dizzy
with these thoughts
of you
Just when I think
that I've escaped you
Here I am
Trapped in another
doorless room
with you
Your dark eyes
they burn me
Your touch
I feel you singe
my skin
How can you be
so careless
so dark
so strong
Am I feeding you
my own strength 
so willingly
How careless
of me
You've been my
unwanted guest
I thought you'd just leave
on your own 

-July 2014

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Clearly

I've wanted to see you
for all that you are
I know that I have
made it this far
At least as far as I 
can tell
We're right here where
the universe 
is wishing us well
I never thought 
I could see anyone
as clearly as I see you
And I know
that you see me
Some may wonder
how it can be
But I've opened myself up
to you
The way that you did
to me
It's amazing
Oh, you're amazing
to me
You're all the things
I always wanted
to be
Being right here 
with you
makes me want to be
all that I know
I can be
You're my touchstone
through life
You're my gravity
And I'll always be right here
with you
The way I know 
you always will
for me

-July 2014

Friday, June 27, 2014

The Hero We Find

The journey
may not always
make sense
But we still
must travel it
We will never know
how much strength
we carry
Until the day comes
when we must wield it
We'll wield it against
our dragons
our darkness
And when we walk
alone in the shadows
we must be brave
Brave enough 
to see
to realize
That all the darkness
that we face
is only here to teach us
just how blissful
the light will be
Because when we reach
that light
we will feel 
its warmth
its grace
We'll see that the light
has always been there
inside us
Waiting to be discovered
And the darkness will fade
and we'll know
just how strong
we truly are
And we'll find
that the only hero
we've ever needed 
has always been 
ourselves

-June 2014

Friday, June 20, 2014

Companions

I love the clarity
that we've found
You're my blessing
and my treasured soul
You're my muse
and I use you
for all things
You bring me life
The roads we take
will not always feel
this smooth
this wide
this free
But we'll always travel
together
Side by side
Beneath the light
of the sun
and the moon

-June 2014

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Colder

I wrote this a long time ago and I just came across it the other day. I'm calling this my "Dark" period. I was hesitant on sharing it, but then I came to the understanding that we all have darkness in us. At one point or another, we can all feel swallowed up by the darkness. And that's okay because without the dark, we would never fully appreciate the light.

Colder

I hate the world
and all it's coldness
My skin shivers
and I feel the chill 
in my lungs
So cold and dry
As I walk 
my legs pain
The asphalt is both
my embrace
and my enemy
My feet saddened 
by the hardness
Where is it leading me
My mind is weary
and confusion sets in
I can't see daylight 
anymore
I walk . . .
Alone at times
The world 
is so much colder
when I do
My body jerks
and hesitates
before each movement
It's always dark

-February 2001

Thursday, June 12, 2014

The Hope We Seek

Where is our Lennon
Our Kennedy
Our King
Is there anyone out there
with hope
they can bring
We sacrifice happiness
Our joys
Our bliss
Why are we taught
there are more important things
than this
Is our beacon
somehow lost at sea
Or is the hope
that we seek
Inside of you
Inside of me

June 2014

Monday, June 9, 2014

Willingly Bound

I can feel your ties
I can feel that you're binding me
to you
I feel no need to brace
when you push
And you'll feel no tug
when you pull
I'm your willing
participant
And you're my trusted
soul
And just as I'm bound
to you
You are bound
to me
And together when we walk
We will walk free

-June 2014

Saturday, May 31, 2014

Keep Moving

Keep moving
Even when the ground
feels stale
Move against the wind
Never keep yourself
against the rail
Keep moving
Keep moving past
your fears
Let go of what's done
You can't undo
all those years
And whenever you feel lost
inside of your own space
Close your eyes and breathe
Remember, that you'll eventually
find your place
As long as you keep moving

-May 2014

Saturday, May 24, 2014

Sweet Singer

Your heart sings to me
and mine echoes your song
All those years without you
could've been spent
hearing this all along

But I didn't know
we could sing so sweet
And now I'm reminded
every time I feel your heat

You spread right through
my viens
I can get lost in your voice
every time you call my name

So I'm gonna hold on to you
for the rest of my days
And I'll show you, show you
how I love you
in a hundred different ways

So let's keep making
this sweet music together
And let's stay lost inside
each other forever

-May 2014

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Dancing In The Rain

I'll carry you
in my heart
It will keep you
safe and warm
I'll wrap you up 
in dandelions
to cushion you
from the storm
I'll keep you
as my pet
and whenever 
the world is wet
we'll go out dancing
Oh, how I love dancing
in the rain with you

-April 2014