Sunday, January 7, 2018

Admittedly Broken

Running
Harder
Faster
Trying
to catch up
to the light
I keep feeling
the fierce fight
stirring
It can no longer
be contained
I've been broken
So broken
Trying to mend
myself
with tools
that held
no reasoning
Avoiding
reflections
with closed eyes
and a turned cheek


-January 2016

Sunday, December 31, 2017

Reflection

I can see you
take him on
You've been doing it
for so long
You forgot to feel
the soft wind
against your ear
The way you have felt
with no one near
Now you try
to calm your soul
Letting go
of what you can't control
And you feel like
you're spinning
Spinning
You've been spinning
for so long
You take a look
at your reflection
You see a woman
that's too hard to question
But question you must
You are losing the face
you're needing to trust
And you wonder why
she can't let go
Of all the things
she already knows
I see you reach
for her face
Knowing she's the one
you must embrace



-May 2017

Thursday, December 7, 2017

That Echo

That echo
through the grain
The one
that beat so fiercely
I still feel it
sinking
in my chest
Heavy 
and full of things
once deeply buried
But all things
rise
with time
Just like
the sun and the moon
I can feel it
Taste it
With each
heaving breath
I breathe



-May 2017

Saturday, December 2, 2017

Falling Fall Leaves

There's a game you play
When you watch the leaves falling
Deep down inside
you know what's been calling
But your hands keep on slipping
from those stiff silver reins
You trot a little faster
hoping it's the happiness you'll gain
But the ice keeps on melting
and nothing defrosts your bone
You can't seem to remember
the direction toward home
And your heart seems to linger
in all that dark empty space
Where you hold no desire
for what's trimmed with white lace



-April 2017

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

For Me

I can't
I can't look to the sun
There's nothing I see
Except an endlessly disintegrating dream
You know the one
The one you read about
Heard about
The one on the never-ending loop
You're never complete
without the strong hold of the opposite
Forget the things you can not outrun 
Look in the mirror first
before laying down each crown
I had to see where I've been
And it's dark
Dark as darkest night
Where the moon often
withheld its light
I had no torch to light my way
Only a feeling
too often ignored
I taste it now
It's been lacking conviction
So I've staked my claim on my own self
I feel that in my bones
And I'll no longer bleed
for anyone else but me


-August 2017

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

What I Need

I need softness
and tenderness
like my lungs
need air
I'm learning
to be gentle
with myself
I need you
to be gentle too


-September 2017

Sunday, September 3, 2017

Fleeting

In this small
blip of time
I'd like to lick you
like honey
I want to try
your taste
But my mouth
is already full
of things
I can't swallow


-September 2017